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Sunday, December 10th, 2006
5:53 pm	the storm is coming. seeing brand new. was amazing. i don't care your opinions of the group if you think they are some emo band from new jersey who just writes catchy words that rhyme. it's not about that to me. seeing them live just set it in stone for me the power jesse lacey has as an artist. the dynamics and writing can come from any direction in that band. but i connect with lacey more than any other member. his new material is that of an angry teenager in the sense he just got his ass handed to him in a sense. in the fact that where he was going with Deja Entendu...wasn't really the extend of him as a person. i mean? i love that album to death..every song is catchy, great writing, and just i dont know how you couldnt find one song off that album you cant say you don't like. sure some are weaker than others but they are all pretty good. its just...i love meaning..substance...music that hits you hard.. it's not always intended. but i really love the new material from "the devil and god are raging inside of me" it shows the sensitive child lacey must be due to brand new's success. seeing jesse last night i realized how much of a tired show bird he is. not in the sense of he is bored with what he does. more in the fact he is in physical pain due to constant touring. his anguish and pain, i hope are really helped by the two and a half months they are taking off. and i suggest you listen to TDAGARIM. with an open ear...sure you may still have more feelings for DEJA...but if you just look at it more as an autobiography of a person rather then some songs by a group. you'll realize the power and the growth of this group over time. just my two cents. <3 the flan. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 22nd, 2006
11:46 am	time for an update. last night was a good night for me. you see in light of the whole if all us fail thing with ryan trying out. i've been inspired to start writing my own music play guitar, bass, synth, sing, and maybe minor procussionary things. it's ten songs and i finished the concept last night. it should be easy to write because it is very loosely based off things in my life. heres the track listing! 1. Capital Out Of This Accident 2. Mr. Enfield And The Black Winter Morning 3. Knife On The Mouldings 4. I Thought It Was Madness, Now I'm Afraid It's Disgrace 5 Incident At The Carew Manor 6 A Drop In The Sea Of Abhorrence 7 Doctor Lanyon 8 Sleep And The Virtue Of Medicine 9 Hyde And Seek 10 The Sealed Confessions Of My Final Moments to know the genre of this project...you have to dig into my past. i want to try something new...that no one expects me to be capable of. something i want this project to show...it my musicianship...to show im just not a player but that im not a bad writter. because? when im in a band i dont feel a creative element in it at all. its whats best for what the group things and my ideas are usually 86'd. so for about 4 years....this is what ive wanted to do. things to expect. an instrumental track. an acoustic track. big choruses. guest vocals. catchy material? haha well we shall see how it all plays out in the end. but im hoping to find a drummer who is capable of double bass...but i dont want anyone who wants to do things too complicated. im thinking of recording at kevin billingslea's in waterboro. the only bad thing about kevin is his guitar tone while recording. im hoping with my PODXT that this isnt a problem anymore :-) ... also! i bought the new brand new cd "the devil and god are raging inside of me" i think is a great evolution of the band...who they dont make the same cd twice ever. the whole cd was recorded in a giant hall for an amazing sense of reverb. it's very big sounding. and yet its not empty? you can sense heart in these songs. ive taken this cd personal because within the lyrics you can see jesse lacey beginning to questioning religion and if theres a god. you see him turn from an emotional artist from someone who is dark, dynamic and yet so powerful. its beginning to grow on me already. :-) ... so im going to go to the gym pretty soon :-) have a great wednesday! Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Jesus Christ-Brand New (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006
8:47 pm	why am i such a burden on everyone. i make too many people unhappy. its official. i told my mom about all the things going on with me...my physical/mental/emotional health. and she cried.. shes in florida now. i feel lonely. i'm going to stop now. night. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 28th, 2006
1:46 pm	i'm a lucky person in the sense when teachers check homework... i always have my homework done. and when they don't i dont... heh. my life is pretty standard these days... i wish i had a chance to watch the sunset sometime... to just enjoy things without this whole fast pace thing going on. life is hectic. college=stress. i don't have any time left to sit back and enjoy myself... i've pretended to be sick so many times and yet i can't just sit home for one day and enjoy being home alone, sleeping, and just not caring about anything or anyone but my well being. i feel drained right now...like my youth is gone...its all about school and money now. fuck currency. i feel that anything that creates such greed, such hatred, and such unjust balence between people should be eliminated. money talks, if you aint got it walk. to be honest with you i feel the moment i became such a pessimistic person was the moment i was a senior in mr mahoneys class. never have i been treated the way i am right now in his class room... i used to think i was a semi intellectual human being. little did i realize i'm about as far from it as you can get! i bought tickets to brand new in lowell mass for the 9th of december today, it was $27. i'm sure it will be a great show to go to..in a way i envy jesse lacey for his songwriting ability and just his way of singing...certainly not his voice. i'm curious to see the performance aspect of him. my vocal dvd right now is in kansas city... i wonder what it's like in kansas right now? i hope the weather is really great for them right now. i don't know why i bring this up? i feel like a fool for not studying the bible because of philosophy, i mean? not that i'm religious...yes? i do believe in god...but i really don't feel the catholic religion is right for me...i mean? i have alot of belief in the basis of the church. but the church itself is what i have a problem with... if people have a problem..realisticly i feel they should look inside themselves for answers. if there is a god i feel he has to be indifferent? because i feel if i were god id be doing something very similar. it reminds me of a futurama episode i saw one time...the fact that people spend their whole lives looking for meaning or substance. finding god or worrying about your afterlife..is really not something you should worry about. theres a natural set of determining factors in our universe. and you just have to do your best to do everything you'd love to do before you die... i suppose talking to krista ive realized i worry too much about my future...and i have to realize? whatever i want to do. and try hard to do...i'll do it. the fear of me making the wrong decision is something i must cast aside from my mind.. because the choice i make..will be the right one? if it wasnt the right choice. it wouldnt of happened this certain way. so i'm sorry about this random entry... but if you have questions, comments, suggestions, or just advice. leave me something...ill do my best to reply and answer whatever you'd like. but for now i gotta get to an essay for media. :-) have a good night everyone. <3 the flan. Current Mood: happy Current Music: hey ya-outkast (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 24th, 2006
11:41 pm	Dear Live Journal. today was really hard for me. seeing her go after having her home for a weekend. it was paradise for three days of my life. the city changes alot about people...she isnt the same girl i met in january.... it's interesting to see the change in people over time... i've spent time thinking of all the ways i've done wrong to people in my life...and i'm sorry. i'm picking myself apart frame by frame to discover what i really am lately...and frankily? i have never been so proud and yet so utterly disgusted with myself... i am a bastard. i realize this? i'm a little shit...to be honest? i really love being evil. but at the same time...theres such an innocent fool to me? consider my body a mine field. this is the internal struggle of good and evil? a clash of the titans if you will? cane versus able dr jekyll and mr hyde. i've realized my problem as this folks seperation anxiety. everyone reads this and states "KRISTA!" but it's not so much about her? i mean yes i miss her terriblely...but this isnt this instance i'm refering to. i speak of myself.. my past and my future. frankily my health concerns me... i sat today and pondered why am i here? of course i was at work so that is probably why i was soo blueeee but honestly? do i serve a bigger purpose in this game? or am i a key player in something that i don't even realize. i've found my senior quote. and it is francis mahoney? go figure? like he's wise or some junk. :-). i started this entry bitter. and i came out with a smile? i suppose thats why i have this live journal. :-) goodnight kiddos. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
11:08 pm	hmm. you ever have those days were you learn something about a person. something that really makes your stomach turn because its so awful? ever trust a person and are let down because of it? today was one of those days. and thankfully ive grown up enough as a person these last couple years. to know one chance is sometimes to many in this world. you've lost my trust and respect. i hope you know this. grow up. Current Mood: Not Amused. Current Music: Seventy Times Seven-Brand New. (Comment on this)
Friday, September 8th, 2006
11:08 am	soo. yesterday was one of the greatest days of my life. for real. like? perfect. wierd... :-) it's sad seeing that skyline move away from you so fast. i love boston. period. i love to over punctuate. :-) it was sad all my ipod was playing was songs that remind me of her... and i was like...YOU BASTARD :-). i'm being a wuss because i know ill be down there next weekend. haha Guess what... i woke up. and found out my own rival is in the paper this morning ;-) goddamn my life rules. bye kiddos. <3 the flan. Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: Chasing Cars-Snow Patrol (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 6th, 2006
1:08 am	Just Incase You Were Wondering. Semester One. Block 1 Psychology With Mr Timberlake Block 2 Philiosophy With Mr Mahoney A Lunch Block 3 Media Communications With Mr Anderson Block 4 Media Communications With Mr Anderson Semester Two. Block 1 British Literature With Mr Simard Block 2 Ethics In Literature With Mr Schultz A Lunch Block 3 Media Communications With Mr Anderson Block 4 Media Communications With Mr Anderson :-). pretty kick ass my three favorite subjects. english/history/media all covered. After School On Thursday...I'm Going To A Train Station In Wells To Go To Boston To See Krista... SO EXCITED :-)! Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Handshakes At Sunrise-Circa Survive (8 Comments |Comment on this)
1:03 am	yeah, hear me bitch. once agian. i'm fed up with my body. i hate it. i cant stand to look into a mirror. i need to start exercising....because i hate how i look. i figured id wait for school so i can start getting a consistant schedule going... something like 5 am. wake up. eat. run. shower. dress. leave. i figured its for the best...i'd like to look in the mirror and compliment myself rather than just fully hate myself for things. i know this whole journal entries making me come across like a girl. but whatever? you would have stoped reading by now if it bothered you that much! ;-) i bought my tickets for boston thursday and next saturday. i'm so excited to see krista agian... i know "FLAN ITS BEEN 5 DAYS QUIT BEING LAME" well fuck ya'll :-)...i miss her and it will be great to see her agian :-) work sucks...i'm always foodside and i have to do lauries job whenever i work with her...dairy queen is really falling apart and i dont care enough to extinguish the flame. i really don't make enough to be happy for the amount of work i put into this place. if you havent heard my past few weeks have been very stressful in relation to having alot of my best friends leave. to a breakdown with my brother about life... i've lost it? i really don't hold a shred of dignity or a speck of hope... but really? i don't want to let you down. ive been given so much in life...so much oppurtunity and chance...all to be ruined by my older brother(s) mistakes. i'm living in a shadow of the real. currently im on perscribition medication for my sleep problems. i dont sleep...if im lucky i get myself stressed out, overworked, and just sore enough to pass out for several hours... its a blank existance...i don't dream...i don't think...i lay there quietly...with no vital signs... when i do wake up...its to someone angry. i'm bored? quite frankily...i have way to much responsibility at work for one person to handle when did i trade in my soul? was that in the contract i signed? because i feel like i've sold out my high school years in order to make the rich more successful and leaving me in an endless haze of night shifts on foodside. i need a hobby. night kiddos. <3 the flan. Current Mood: drained Current Music: Saosin-Mookie's Last Christmas (Comment on this)
Friday, August 25th, 2006
12:22 pm	ladies and gentlemen, i pose to you a question dear boys and girls, my name is andrew flanagan and i have a question? what is it with me a libras? that is all. <3 the flan. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 24th, 2006
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Thursday, August 17th, 2006
11:04 am	CAMBIATA TONIGHT LEWISTON INTO THE NIGHT CD RELEASE! sooo fucking excited! :-D then tommorow! I HAVE A SHOW IN WATERBORO! (8 Comments |Comment on this)
11:04 am	CAMBIATA TONIGHT LEWISTON INTO THE NIGHT CD RELEASE! sooo fucking excited! :-D then tommorow! I HAVE A SHOW IN WATERBORO! Cuz It's Balla! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006
3:38 pm	Friday. Cancel Your Plans. yes ladies and gentlemen... the return of my own rival from a month off! we have stoped recording to start focusing on live shows and writing new material. this will include a complete revamp of some of our old material including lyrics and music. the story is about half way done...6 out of 10 songs are complete. and now we just have to master the sound and go into the studio! :-) i'm hoping to release the cd in march? :-) its so good...each song represents a different style of music we all loved growing up. i hope ya'll enjoy it also! i'm doing the sound on friday...so that means...my new ipod! for the breakdown music between sets... :-D! please come out to friday...tyler, max, kenney, alex, dan, (i dont really know jordan?), ryan, tom, zac and i...are really excited to play! its only $5...but i guarantee a show you wont forget! the premier of our new song "jumpin into oncoming traffic" its heavy mother fuckers...with a southern cry. its good! :-) hope to see you all there! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: The Early November-Money In His Hand (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 29th, 2006
12:00 pm	Don't Be Fooled By The Rocks That I Got, I'm Still, I'm Still Flanny From The Block. after a much needed hiatus from my livejournal. i have returned! guess what i got! IPOD! 30 GB IPOD! YAY! ( my own rival is back in the studio! ) sorry i don't feel like writting much...because theres not a lot to report i'm afraid... i'm working way to much..and playing music way too little. GAY! sooo next friday! my own rival has a show with our brother band if all us fail, in waterboro to benefit this new club "the connection" in waterboro! you should come its $5 at 5:30! i'm doing the sound ;-) OW OW! see you soon suckas. (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 15th, 2006
1:09 pm	Let The Sweat Flow, Let The Heat Rise! dude. i am a senior. no more finals? no more chem? no more stupid bitches. i'm free man! and im soo excited! :-D i just recently watched the sparks the rescue tour video and realized how jealous i am those guys can travel cross country and tour whereever they want right now...no jobs, no school, just being with the other guys they love most and just playing a show everynight...seeing the country and realizing theres more than just maine around the world. haha i guess they must be having the time of their lifes...so my goal is to my next year to do that...to have a van and go with my own rival on a tour...to just say fuck college for a month and just...live my life without people bitching at me about how im not sensitive to their needs or i have to do this and that. not having a care in the world except the 3 other guys in the van with me. if you havent heard my own rival won the high street battle of the bands...so very shortly im going to buy my mixer and upgrade from a kustom 4-channel powered head...to a 400 Watt per side, 20 channel, behringer powered mixer...i'm so happy i dont have to deal with volume problems anymore! haha since we won it also means time to record agian...this time is a three song demo...we are going to retrack collision and the struggle...and we are in the process of writing an amazing new song...(not the song we premiered on saturday, but a new new one ;-)) haha im so excited... i got a raise at work 3 weeks ago...and i can see the difference? i mean now that schools done i can work up to 40 hours a week...but now that i can? i dont really need to...all i have left to buy is a big mic cable....maybe some drum mics and some stands? but i dont know i dont need anything right now! and its a good feeling to not need or want anything. for once in my life i am legitimately happy...and i mean? its on my own....i have the band, and i have work...i have amazing friends and now i even have fans? i mean how cool is that? :-). i just realized two things...i love propel fitness water...and radiation year! we might play a show on sunday with them and the boys of a silent vigil....but ill be on pain medication...so hopefully my wisdom teeth are all set by then (what a way to start a vacation eh?) i love the way things are going. i hope all is well for you too. <3 the flan. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: White Trash Ballroom-Radiation Year (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 20th, 2006
1:06 am	overdue ranting. i am subdued. i am sheltered. i am in a state where i cannot break the bonds between my fiction filled mind and the harsh reality that is our world. i am a writter who is frivolous with a pen or quill and challenged to ever create anything to inspire meaning or with purpose. my life has become a empty canvas between my childhood and adulthood, and quite frankly i am scared. yet with these fears i have learned to balence them positively and express myself as beautifully as i can. i absolutely love people...therefore i trust and love too easy, and you must always forgive, forget, live, love, hate, hurt, destroy, motovate, and laugh. life is too random, and too short to ever take yourself too seriously. where has worry, despair and regret ever got anyone? dead in a coffin with nothing to look back on. you live once, and its not what you know. its who you know and the expierence you spend with them, friends are priceless, but happiness lies within yourself. i'm not stating i know the meaning of life, but im certain on aspects that it contains. the world is a spectrum of light...the colors and beauty it brings seem unreal to me. yet the horror and terror of our world seems unreal to me....me questioning my religion. my nation's socio economic status, and researching the history of the world...gives me a better understanding of life as a whole. ive been told...im actually a charmer, and i know alot more than what i should at my age. i'm here for a reason world...and im here to stay. my band keeps my life going, the honor of playing with ryan, tom and zac, is amazing...and they almost seem flawless most of the time...and i am growing so much as a vocalist and they challenge me everyday. the nerve of people astonishes me. lauding people for their strengths, and ten seconds later criticizing the same thing seems hypocritical and makes me sick to my stomache. i realize im a crappy LJ friend..but to be honest i dont comment because i use my blog to express myself without choking bitches out...i update because i have to...its what keeps me sane through rough patches... to be honest...its goign to be a rough month. but i have faith that ill do better than fine. i love my life. and everyone in it. stay beautiful <3 the flan. Current Mood: flirty Current Music: The Mars Volta-The Widow (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
7:55 am	Orono, and everything in between *i decided to skip first block today* because morgan perkins likes to complain when i dont update. i do it, because i hate when people are mad. and im not in the mood for english! :-D anyway. as you all know flan's campus invasion went off without a hitch. i left at around 8 on friday morning to go to saint joseph's one word. ( beautiful ) ryan tom and i went to tune town on monday to listen to and edit our song... and im very excited for the release on monday! :-). chelsea and i bought tickets to circa survive and saves the day yesterday with ryan and brittany. and today i have to work, and i have band practice! BUT RIGHT NOW IM LATE FOR SCHOOL ;-) haha totally skiped first block but its now 8:52. so i gotta go! Bye loves! <3 the flan. Current Mood: LATE! Current Music: the divinyls-i touch myself (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
9:28 pm	Oh my god. such an amazing ending to a great night. thank you for hanging out with me, chels. :-). Current Mood: happy Current Music: Us And Them- "The" Pink Floyd (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
6:44 am	i dont really understand dear journal, why is it that the ones that need me are the ones that dont really understand me...im asked for advice and to talk, all the time and its basicly like i dont understand the principle of me being wise or being able to bestow wisdom apon anyone else? anyother thing is...when everyone wants me...is never when i can do it...but i do it anyway because im a total yes man. for example after school, i said id help craig out, but then i forgot i have to go running, and then when i want to run after school, ryans like oh yeah? we have practice today! .....what the fuck i never win! and yesterday brads video shoot...made me an hour late for my run and by the time i got there manda was leaving.... i guess my point is. why cant the world revole around me? i mean? im pretty bitchin' sometimes haha. i know its selfish and i dont really mean it its getting to that point at work where i know im not getting out till an hour after my shift is over. :-/ and that makes me upset because it ruins my "night" and when i get home is like...9:45-10ish....and i usually dont have time to relax and talk to friends and so on. so lets review shall we? my band needs to set, "set" practice days my runs need to be after school (every day) brad, needs to ask me if its a good time for me to shoot a video, before he goes out and does it. people need to want me on my days off. haha okay okay. im done ranting. as for my undersleeping....this 11-6 shift isnt working out anymore. :'( i need to go to bed earlier...GAH! :-/ anyway...today is a day of wonder. finally a day off. which means. running after school. band practice. getting a hair cut from chelsea (crosses fingers) ... anyway ill probably update later today as welll because im that terrific. have an amazing day :-D. <3 the flan. (1 Comment |Comment on this)